Goals are a funny thing. There are many kinds of goals. Goals are most frequently referred to as “long term” and “short term” which effectively implies that goals are a) time oriented, and b) categorized in only two ways (ie. long or short term). I see it differently, as I’m sure many people do if they think about it longer than the time it takes to spout the above quoted words.

In my mind goals split into many categories, priorities, and classes. For example, there are the life long goals: get an education, have a family, have a career, etc. These are nice to have and you can never really check them off because they are sort of on going. There are also the goals you set for things you want to do at least once in your life. One of mine is write a novel (that I can be happy with). I don’t feel like I have to get published or earn a living at it, I just want to develop my writing enough that I can write a novel that I can polish enough through revision and editing that I myself can be happy with it.

Another goal I have is to develop and keep talents. This is a sort of short term goal that is perpetual. Each day or week I have to set aside time to practice instruments, sing, create art, program games, or work at whatever else it is I want to have an ability to do. This is where priorities and classes of goals start to muddy my resolve to accomplish these goals.

You see, when I work hard at a series of my perpetual goals, (say, playing piano) I don’t have time to work on some other goals (writing a book). So it’s that time equation again.

I bring this up because last October-November, I was getting back into writing after having done little with it since college. I started writing a story I’d had developing in my head for many months in October and decided to do NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) in November. NaNoWriMo is a challenge to writers to write 50,000 words toward a novel during the month of November. I succeeded at the challenge but feel I failed at the spirit of it.

As I neared my 50,000 words, I discovered my story was “all wrong,” which is to say in order to deal with everything I want to deal with in the story and with these characters I’ll have to split the book into three. That basically means I have to start over eventually to get it “right.” However I’ve heard the dangers of doing this, particularly if I don’t at least see the writing to the end before going back and fixing it, so I’m trying to figure out where the story should be going for this first book before I continue writing. So far, so good.

Except that NaNoWriMo is November. Which means right after it, there’s the Christmas holiday, our kids’ birthday, New Year’s and a host of other stressful and time consuming things. I’d hoped to start up my story again in January, but so far no dice.

Instead I felt a resurgence of another goal, creating games. During the week before Christmas I started to feel the urge to remake a game I’d done long ago (and others have done many times), the classic board game “Battle Ship” (called Naval Battle in my version). It took a bit longer to get the game written this time, but I am much happier with this version than I ever was with the one I did years ago. I also remade another popular game that I’ll release some time soon.

But I find I’m at a crossroads of priorities again. I’ve satisfied my game making itch that comes up ever so often, but I have momentum now that I could use to pump out another two or three games without them taking so much time or effort. Or, I could get back to my writing and complete my story (something that had momentum but has since lost it).

It’s not an easy choice, and I may not even have to make it; I go back to school again next week. If this term is fairly easy (as the last 2-3 terms have been) I’ll still have plenty of time for either writing or game making, but if it’s hard I may not have time for either…


2 Comments to “Of Goals, Games and Manuscripts”

  1. Ah, the great debate in life! What talent to work on, for how long, and will it be worth it in the end? Perhaps what you should do is break your goals for developing your talents into months. That way, you won’t feel as if you have cheated yourself by not spending enough time doing each one every week. If you have four talents that you wish to develop further, you could easily switch them out every four months, and be able to develop them for three months out of the year. If you space them out enough, I bet you won’t feel cheated anymore and you’ll more than likely have time for all of them. Don’t give up the opportunity to perform said talents, however. If you choose to devote your time in the month of February to practicing piano and someone asks you to play for a recital in January, don’t think you can’t do that simply because it’s not the “month” to focus on that talent. Take each opportunity you can to enrich and bless the lives of others by using your talents when you can, but perhaps refine the goal a bit so you aren’t as strapped for time. Just my thoughts. Good post, by the way.

  2. Yes, Sorry for the delayed response… I have no excuse. But you have a very good point about switching off days/months/etc. and giving each talent a fair portion so I don’t feel bad about it. I actually have a complicated situation that makes the actual divisions hard to do, but am trying to do basically what you suggested. I’m trying to work on my music talents while the kids are awake and in an independent play mode, then when they’re asleep doing more stuff that can’t be regularly interrupted or at least not as noisy. Presently that is more the game programming direction and hope to get to writing when I’m not in class.